Distractions

 Wednesday 10th January 2024

I woke up today with all excitement that I finally get a proper day off to "myself"; since June 2023. No parcels to deliver, I have enough dinner to last me because I stocked up. Brr it's cold outside. And dinner previously made the night before, so I don't have to bother fight to get into the kitchen of the demonic Step-dad-meanwhile my so-called Mother laughs at what is happening to me. Perfect leftovers-spaghetti bolognaise. So typically, it is an ideal day for me...until.

My toxicity of a mother, decides to get her paint kit out as I'm preparing breakfast. Painting the mould in her bathroom. And asks me to hold the paint pot, as I'm already holding a tall glass-which I had previously placed my vitamin c effervescent tablet in (preparing my breakfast) as I'm thinking I need to get back to eat my breakfast. And, as she has no feelings or self-awareness, I held the pot for her.

After that, I go downstairs to attempt to eat my breakfast and have fun watching YouTube videos, so I can have a morning (ahem, afternoon) to myself. She shouts out loud, let me know when I can do your bedroom. This was the 1st warning I recieved and I replied ok.

I felt I couldn't eat my breakfast and relax. I skipped through my video quickly and drank my vitamin c tablet at a reasonable time- just so she didn't have to wait on me.

Only to find her already painting in my bedroom without my permission. No Respect, for my boundaries. What-so-ever.

What current people have you attracted that don't have a good relationship with their mother? Currently, none that I am aware of. I don't really hear anyone talk about their mother. The girl from Peru only spoke about her Dad. Maybe because I am connecting more with my Dad.